Bothers me a bit

In this mornings Aamulehti there was a guide "How to choose a perfect dress for your body type". None of the body types describes was me. I am Y-shape but I don't have skinny legs. My legs have enormous muscles in them. And it seemed that they expected body type "Y" to be skinny anyways. The only fatter shape was the "O" and that doesn't describe me either. My big arms don't look too good with any of the example dresses. Yet another guide that helps in no way at all. I had to have it said and somehow I felt FB and Twitter were not the right media for it. And it was time for an update anyway so. Have an awesome weekend!

New glasses

Glasses

I bought these awesome glasses from flea market maybe a month ago. This is the style I've been looking for. Usually champagne glasses are "flutes". I don't have any of those nor do I want any. I prefer this "Spanish" model more.

Buzzador duties with fond du chef

Hi everyone! I've been doing this Buzzador thing again with Knorr Fond du Chef. http://knorr.fi/#/etusivu/fondduchef I've made several different dished with them including salmon pasta and chicken noodle soup. Tried all of the four flavors (beef, chicken, veggie and fish) some more than once. I also gave my friends some to try themselves. I have to say at first I thought they were far too salty. Perhaps it was because of the soy cream I used or maybe one Fond was too much for the meal in question. However after making the very tasty chicken coconut noodle soup I changed my mind. I used 2 flavors in it, chicken and veggie, and I must say the result was excellent. Here's a picture of one of the first meals I made with the Fonds:

I wish I had more money to try so many more different types of dinners with them. With the salmon pasta I put half fish fond in the macaroni. I can't say I tasted much difference in it. But at least I tried one different way of using them. Still have a couple of weeks to test and wait for my friends' responses. So far I have been able to make tasty meals with them, nothing bad.

thoughts

I suppose if I really think about it, this place doesn't really feel like home either. It feels..temporary. Will I ever be able to settle down? One could wonder if it was because this is a rented place and not my own but I am worried it wouldn't make a difference. Unless maybe I would find an absolutely perfect apartment that I could and would buy. Would that make me feel more settled? Perhaps we'll never know. At least I'd need more things to make this more complete. The big wall still looks very unfinished, bare even. It needs more but I can barely buy food.. I bought 11kgs of food and drink today. Spent a fortune. I should be able to live on all of that for at least 2 weeks if I'm smart about it. I might not be though. If I knew where I stand in this job situation I suppose I wouldn't be so worried. Halloween on Monday and there's nothing I can do about it... November coming soon.. At least I have sangria!

new life

I have not mentioned anything about my new life. Maybe I should. Living on my own now for the first time since... ever, to be honest. It's a bit weird but not that much I suppose. I have a very cozy apartment. I just have to accept that every night I am awaken at 5 and can get back to sleep maybe at 6am. Then wake up comes around 9 am. Cats won't let me sleep too much. First week I was over eating. Analyze it how ever you want. Then I decided I have to stop and I did. I don't know what to say really. Just getting used to all this. It's a bit too soon to say much.

hmm

I applied for an interesting job. As a Quality Hunter. I will tell you all about it when I get rejected. Deal?

Cute

Grrrr

Life without a computer is very unpleasant

:/

So trip no 1 got booked and all looked awesome for a moment. Then the next day things went bad. I had already let myself believe it a little but my luck is not that good. The trip is still happening but it's going to be different. I'm just disappointed. Especially since it is not just the trip that went sour.. Oh well, that's life for you.. Just gotta deal with it.

Planning 2 trips abroad!

Can you believe it?!?
One only a week from now with awesome friends. Only it's not booked yet and I believe it's awesome when we're all in the bus on the way there. But still it's been promised to happen and I try to hope it's true. Because it will be so effing awesome.
Another one, also something I don't really believe 100% yet. But I was told I won a trip worth of a lot of money. But I will believe it when I see the gift certificate. When I know more I can really start planning. I might go alone somewhere for 2 weeks or bring a friend and pay for her trip as well. I might do that because I can. And it would definitely be more fun with someone else.
This is me writing. The poor, unemployed me. A bit of good fortune has come my way and I intend to enjoy it to the fullest. I think I deserve it. My life has been so empty and unhappy for years as you may know if you have read this blog before (if anyone ever reads it anyway..).
I'm hoping next week will be awesome and all things go as planned and nothing goes wrong. I really really hope that. If there is any good luck in the air for me I need it next to make this all happen.

Mi vida.

For once my life is not boring and lame. It's finally interesting. I'm having lots of fun. I'm doing things I used to only dream about (and things I thought I would never ever do) and I'm learning things about myself I never knew before and I have great new friends to hang out with.
I have to say that for the first time in years I'm happy.
Can't say my life is easy or simple but a little complication keeps things interesting.
7 months in and I still think this is my year. The best of them all. Although incredibly poor.

Tuesday

So it was Tuesday. I was on my way to zumba when I got a call from my friend asking if I'd like to go to a bar. Since it's basically my principle this year not to say no to any chance of fun I said let's talk again after my zumba class. Right after the class she said they were coming to pick me up. I was in my zumba gear, you know running shoes and sweaty clothes, but I figured WTH. So there I was going to a bar in my sweaty zumba clothes. And as it happens I got home at 4am. On a Tuesday night! Or more like Wednesday morning.. haha. But I sure had fun. Good evening. More of these.

I want it so bad

lazy blogger

Haven't said anything for awhile.
Not that there's been anything worth mentioning.
I'm gonna make some money this Friday and Saturday. No idea how much but some anyway. This also means I have to wake up at 5am on Saturday!! Oh well..
Since we got the new sofas I've been doing more of decorating and cleaning than ever before. It's nice to have an apartment that looks like a place people live in and not just a storage area for random furniture.

I managed to hurt my little finger last Saturday. It was a football injury. It got all black and swollen. I don't think I broke it but it hurts to bend it or put pressure on it. I thought about going to show it to a doctor but then I decided he/she can't really do anything about it. Only wrap it so it gets rest and heals and then I'd have to pay too much for that. I don't have that kind of money.

disturbing

Yesterday I found a health card from when I was either 14 or 15. It had also my height and weight on it. I was a bit shorter then. And also I was a bit heavier then. So basically I am much thinner now than I was in middle school. That's somewhat disturbing but also very wonderful at the same time.

Tallinn

I got a free trip to Tallinn yesterday. The catch was I had to be the driver. I drove a van for the second time in my life and in 2 different unfamiliar cities. But it was fun.
It didn't start off very good. At around 6:40 we were meant to leave from Pirkkala and the hand break was stuck. It took awhile to get it released and then we were off. It was rainy so I was only driving 100-110km/h. But we got to the harbor without a problem. Next problem appeared when we were checking in. The height of the van was a bit problematic. It was supposed to be 190cm but then the harbor guy measured it to be higher. But he was too drunk or too uninterested to do anything about it so he let us go. I was still a bit worried about driving to the boat because it was my first time behind the wheel doing that. But things went well. Boys drank beer on the boat and I didn't. I saw someone who look very much like Olli Hietajärvi and when I mentioned it to my bf he mentioned the other guys in the same company were Teräsbetoni. When we got out in Tallinn it was the different harbor than first thought so the route to the Norde Centrum was different and by the time I realized that it was too crowded to change lanes and we ended up doing a lap in the other side of the city center but eventually ended up parking on the norde centrum lot. And even though I said no way we're eating at Hesburger we couldn't find another place to eat so we ended up back at the Hesburger at Norde Centrum. Ridiculously cheap compared to Finland. We were about 30 mins ahead of our schedule but headed out for the SuperAlko anyway. Good thing we didm since it took so long to get all our booze. Only we were at the harbor heading back an hour before it was boarding. It was a bit hard to be the only one who couldn't drink anything all trip but I made it. And even though R was unsure where we were going after leaving the boat I knew what I was doing and we got to the right road to Tampere eventually. All and all it was a fun trip and I would do it again. Only I'd hope next time I'd have more money.
by the way Tuukka could so well be a brother of Jesse's if I didn't know any better.

*Yawn*

The darn darkness is killing me. I sleep 10 hours/night and I'm tired all day and nothing is interesting and I'm just bored all the time. I need sunshine. I really NEED it. Maybe it's such a medical condition a doctor would recommend moving to another country ;)
Dream on.. As if anything interesting is ever gonna happen to me. You see? That's what this weather does to me. Makes me all negative and miserable. Not good.

I had to give up a little in the job situation and apply to a very uninteresting job. It probably doesn't even pay enough. I can't live like this anymore. I need money.

solar powered

I think I must be made of tiny invisible solar panels. Last week was hot and sunny and wonderful. I was happy and energetic all week. Today it's dark and rainy and cold and I can barely keep my eyes open..

:D

I have to say that this has been one of the best weeks of my life. It's amazing what a bit of heat and sunshine do to me.
I'm like a completely different person.
Also made my exercise record this week. Never ever have I done this much i(we never go anywhere together). I was ready to take pictures but of course I had left my phone at home..
I'm going out "terracing" with 2 of my friends today. I was trying to get them to go out yesterday but both were willing to do today instead. Suits me fine. This is going to be the last good day for a while so it's best to enjoy it to the fullest.
Also I have to mention that I am a bit drunk already. Drinking sangria. Although not as good as Don Simon, but what can I do?
Best quit while I haven't made a complete fool of myself...

things that make me happy pt 1

A new low on the scale

Summer is here

Finally!
Or it should arrive tomorrow. With 28°C. And it should last at least until the end of the week.
I*m gonna love every minute of it. I promise.
I was thinking of going for a quick swim today. It's too cold for anything more than that.

I am going to try to define myself again..

I've been thinking again. I suppose I am an artistic soul after all. Although I possess absolutely no artistic talent whatsoever..

You know the kind of a.. free spirit who thinks life should be about experiences and new things and good times and good wine. Definitely good wine. (although any wine is good wine when there's nothing else available)
The thought of marriage and kids horrify me. Of course I am happy for my friends for getting married and reproducing if it makes them happy but I can't picture myself in their situation. Life is too much fun to be locked inside four walls if you know what I mean.
I am the kind of person who goes out into the nightlife with her friends even when both of us are absolutely skint. Enough for now.

Set a goal

I was reading my heiaheia stats and realized I'm pretty close to -10kgs. On the 15th of June last year I weighed almost 10kgs more than I do now. But only almost. I decided I should try to get there by the 15th. Although this morning I am not as convinced I'll make it anymore. But we'll see.

"Awesome"

That's like the awesomest word there is, right?

I suppose I should believe I'm awesome too. It's just hard. It's so unbelievable. It should really give me a lot of confidence, only it hasn't, at least much. Maybe some day.

But I don't see it myself. I think I look pretty average. I'm not even especially thin or anything. But hey, what do I know?

you know what?

Kesko moving is pretty much the best thing that's ever happened to me, sort of.

Μισώ τη βροχή

I have been entertaining with the idea of starting my days with a 5k jog every morning. It's crazy mostly because running is so damn boring. But then again it would only take about half an hour of my day.. Not too bad.
Great start today. It was raining and my calves are so stiff I could barely walk. So instead of running or going to tai chi I got my acupuncture mat and rested my legs on it for an hour and a half. Now about five hours later I can walk again, relatively painlessly anyway.
R is training for Pirkan Hölkkä. Or at least he should be. I'm not convinced. I thought for a few seconds I should train with him even though I'm not participating. We'll see..
Wish I was better at expressing myself verbally. This seems so lame and hmm...
I give up.

Buzzador duties

I am a member of Buzzador (www.buzzador.com). Which means I get to occasionally test products myself and with my friends and of course tell them about them. This was my second Buzz. I was to get five Dr Oetker Stoneoven Tradizionale pizzas and feed them to my friends. A Perfect opportunity came disguised as a bachelorette party.

To be honest I had already forgotten about the whole campaign because I got the acceptance email on my phone when I was somewhere out and about and only remembered it after seeing a reminder on facebook.

I was worried at first. The upcoming month isn't the best in terms of getting my friends together at the same time over the same table. But then it hit me. The bachelorette party! There I'd have enough people to taste and talk about the pizzas, and we'd save some money on other food at the same time. Very last minute. The idea came to me on Thursday, the party was on Friday. The very next day. Knowing we were going on this cottage, I thought it's very possible there isn't a freezer to put the pizzas in while we do other things. Didn't think of the possibility of not having an oven until sometime early Friday morning. Too late to cancel. Had to hope for the best.

So we arrived at the cottage. No freezer. Just a small freezer box in the refrigerator. Big enough to put three pizzas in it. The other two had to melt, but didn't really matter since we were going to bake them later that day anyway. Also no oven.

I had the perfect solution for the problem. And it was located outside. I figured we could at least try to bake them on the grill. And if that would be an epic failure we could go over to the main house and do the pizzas there.

Turns out it was an excellent idea. Pizzas turned out rather nice and crispy and even hot on top.



The picture would be far more impressive if you could see the fire, but this will have to do.

Girls liked the pizzas. Although probably won't start buying them. I suppose we don't eat all that many frozen pizzas in the end and when it comes to choosing, prize is an important factor, and taste of course. Taste-wise they were quite delicious, especially with an added smoke flavor. :) Salami was everybody's favorite, Mozzarella close second. Tuna got one negative vote.
I'd post a picture of us eating them but we're sauna fresh, and I don't think anyone would want to see that picture published anywhere.

Loucas Yiorkas

Alex Sparrow

Anybody know the song that's playing around minute 6?

My problem

I think my biggest problem is that deep down(or maybe not that deep) I don't really want a normal job. Maybe that's why I find it so hard to decide what I really want to do. And by 'really' I mean something realistic. Because I'd rather be a singer, dancer or a writer. But since I'm not particularly fantastic at any of those things I'm screwed.
Am I repeating myself?

Last weekend I had fun again. I had started feeling really bad about myself again and that Saturday evening was just what I needed. A bit of attention. From three different directions. It was a real ego booster. I've been feeling a bit better since. And I also got to sing karaoke again. And it was brilliant. I love the karaoke at Gloria. The sound around the mic gives me the illusion that I'm good. I'm not. I recorded my song on my phone and although the sound quality is terrible I can hear I can't really sing all that well at all. But at that moment when you're on stage holding a mic and singing a song and it sounds good to you that's just really awesome. More of that please!

Although the night was pretty great as it was, something was left out. I'd really like to dance. It's been too long. Not counting Zumba and hiphop of course, but good old sweating and dancing for hours in a night club to good danceable music. Watching Alex Sparrow Russian party videos on youtube made me miss it even more. Also how fantastic would it have been to have been at that party anyway? Or just to have lived in Düsseldorf this month?!?

αννικα

I want to be good at something.

Dreamworld

it's a good place to be, right?
At least momentarily I'm happy. Then reality hits hard.
You might notice I've been quite unhappy again lately. Sucks to be this poor. In my crazy dreams I am at the next Eurovision song contest. haha, right?

Missing..

I miss karaoke and dancing.
It's been soo long. My life is dangerously slipping into what it was last year and before that and it is not good. Although I have to say I'm so skinned I don't think I can even afford food for the entire three weeks.. I am not willing to steal from my other account since it's my "independence" fund. I'd feel very uneasy without it. Why won't there be any jobs for me? I need money!!!
And I need fun.

suddenly got the urge to learn Greek..

ESC 2011

Yesterday was the final.
I would have to say the quality of the songs in general was quite high. Only about three songs I don't like at all; Moldova, Ireland and Azerbaijan. Shame Azerbaijan won.
I don't think I have a favorite among all these because none of them is outstanding. But to name a few : Romania, Greece, Estonia, Hungary...
How awesome would it be to have that kind of talent? To be able to sing well enough to have the chance to get to represent your country at the Eurovision Song Contest?!? To have any talent for that matter?
ah well..

I feel like I should say something..

.. but what?
Yesterday was the entrance examination for the degree programme in tourism. The exam itself was very easy, but I doubt I aced the essay nor the interview. Time will tell.
I'm feeling lazy. Probably due to the diet. Going for bodybalance still.
I really don't have anything to say

sentences I've never heard in my entire life pt1:

I wanna take you out.

It's been a while again

Over a month.

Suppose not much has happened since that. Except one of my best friends had her bachelorette party last weekend. We took her to a mani-pedi, salsa/merengue dancing, Horseback riding and to this cottage in Lempäälä where we spent the night.

The salsa teacher said we'd do salsa, merengue and reggaeton, but she made us do salsa and merengue so long we ran out of time. It was a shame since I was really looking forward to the reggaeton and especially since we just did the same steps for 4-6 songs, it was getting a bit boring. And since there was nothing new to me. Just the basic steps which I do like 5 times a week anyway in my classes.

I was reading a person X's blog yesterday and it made me feel really bad about myself. Just another reminder that I am so not an interesting person. I have nothing to say. Nothing interesting anyway. I wish I was braver and my brain worked faster. I wish I had more confidence. I wish I wasn't such a chicken. Ah, well.. maybe some day. I thought this was supposed to be therapeutic, writing down(or telling someone) what's bugging me, but it just seems to make me sadder. Not good.

I hope the two Jam classes today will cheer me up. And maybe I'll go check out the toning class too even though gogo website says it's not Vrajim's class today..

Maybe I should make this private.

Perfect

It was my turn to host the *****-star dinner yesterday. I made sweet potato soup, my own curry-thing and layer soup(?). Oh and naan bread.

I think people at least mostly liked my cookings and had a good time.

After that we went to Kuuba/Armas.

I have to say it was the perfect night. To top it all I even won the lotto with 4+1. Not a big win but 17,50€ is more than I have ever won.

I am left with fond memories and honestly the best night of my life.

thanks guys!

parteeh

so yesterday was the awesome party no 2. And I went alone.

I felt a bit silly at first being there all alone, but then people started dancing and I went too, easier to blend in with a crowd. Vrajim took me in a group of people so I didn't have to dance alone all the time. That was nice. It didn't last too long. At around 1am I was already thinking of going home but I got company, so I stayed until around 2:15 and then escaped and took the cab home.

It was a fun evening filled with my kind of music and .. ooh now I have to tell you what I drank, you're not gonna believe it. First a margarita at home, and a very large one, then a tequila shot. Nothing unusual about that. At the bar, first order a beer. Just because it was cheapest. Then a crowmore. or crowmoore? which one is it? anyway. Next half a pint of Guinness!! followed by Laphroaig single malt expensive scotch. That's all I had. Spent too much money, expensive place.

Apparently first of many parties. Hopefully next time I don't have to go alone.

I made a disturbing realization just a moment ago.. Shame I can't really tell anything about it. But disturbing. Pathetic even.

Back to work..

Back in the day and more

When I was still a student I felt like I was in the wrong field, felt that I haven't got enough interest. Well as it happens, I still feel the same, especially after about 3 months of work in "my" field. Or maybe it's just this particular job and the boss. I can't see myself doing this after 2,5 weeks, but what can I do? It's not like I have another plan. I suppose if I ask for so much salary(something that is still reasonable for the job) that it's too much for her to pay then I wouldn't have to stay.

For about 2 seconds I thought about applying for a job in Fuengirola. But it's telesales and I hate that almost more than anything. At least the location and weather would be nicer.

Esta noche is the Gogo Zumba party and Afro Caribbean Spectacular Evening!! yay! I'm trying not to think too much of the fact that all my friends are lame and I have to go alone. Anyway I plan to have fun and dance as long as it doesn't feel weird being there alone.

I don't suppose I have anything else to say, at least anything I can say. :D

Dreamin'

Because I had a pan pizza with lots and lots of garlic yesterday for lunch, I was forced to sleep on my left side all night. And because of that I kept waking up whenever I wanted to turn, so I remember maybe 3 dreams from last night.

Good dreams all of them.

The first one I can remember was the best. I was so happy in that. It's a shame I can't be as happy in real life. I'm pretty sure that it is possible, in theory.

This also made me realize that I haven't gotten over it (you've no idea what I'm talking about and let's keep it that way) although I thought I had. Now I just feel pathetic.

Almost forgot, I applied to Degree Program in Tourism yesterday. I didn't mean to, after I had realized I'd have to live on student grant again for 3-4 years and that does not sound good. But then I figured why the hell not? They had me at "Resort Manager". It's not like I have to go if I should get in. It's a possibility anyway. A door if you will. I had to do it because I've been suffering from a serious case of missing the palm trees. Then I thought I could apply to do my training at Anfi Del Mar. How awesome would that be, especially if they'd let me stay in one of the rooms for 5 months?!?!?

But I'm just a dreamer. If for once my dreams would start coming true? too much to ask?

So I was thinking.. I missed the chance because I only found out about it yesterday and that was the last day and it was a bit too short notice for me(although I'm working on being more impulsive and spur of the moment kinda gal), but back to the point.. At this very moment I feel like the best thing I could do is to go work in a bar or restaurant in Gran Canaria. How amazing would that be?

Weather would be nice most of the year. I'd be able to learn Spanish, at least I should be. Have this laid back job and just enjoy what the island has to offer.

Background: Yesterday as I was having a terrible morning I decided to see what the world has to offer according to mol.fi and they were looking for restaurant and bar workers for 2 different places in Playa Del Ingles. It was just for a 1-3 months but how interesting does that sound?

So I'm thinking, and this is easy now when I know it's not happening now, that next time such opportunity comes I'll apply even though I have very limited restaurant experience.

The sum of many things this is, but one of them being my current job. Although I don't know about the future, all I know is that this is not what I want to be doing. Not really.

hmm

Just went on a cruise with myself this saturday. Seriously I was there alone and I had a good time. Who would have thought? The morning boat was the best idea, because in case there's someone you want to get away from you don't have to spend the entire next day trying to avoid them. You get off the boat so early. And since everyone else started drinking before 9 am, the whole day was there for consuming alcohol. I should definitely do that again, soon.

I think I have to make some serious changes in my life. Even Seija Muurinen's quotes each week seem to tell me so :) www.seijamuurinen.fi

I need a longer break from my current life.

And I wish I could see if what I feel is for real and not just in my head. Not saying more about that. It's a secret ;)

This year has treated me good so far. I hope it lasts.

The only way to get through a boring work week is when there's something to look forward to at the end of it. This week is still good, (could be better too!) but next week worries me. What can I do then?

The last thing I want to do is stay at home all weekend.

I've done that for 8 years. That's more than enough.

More fun

I think I had even more fun this friday. ;) Have to definitely go out a LOT more

Fun FUN FUN!!

So I had the best weekend of my life. Or maybe the best 5 days.

Who would have thought that a snow storm in the New York area would be a good thing for me? But it was. Sheena got stuck in Newark and was unable to go to Dublin or Glasgow where she was going at first. Then she got a plane to Stockholm and came to stay with me for 5 days. This meant I had a chance to meet a relative from the States for the first time ever and also I had someone fun to hangout with to go out with. That's just what we did. First we celebrated new years and my friends place followed by karaoke. Stayed up until 5am. Not our choice actually but anyway. Then the next night was this awesome afro-caribbean party where I had tried to find someone to go with for almost 2 weeks and then suddenly I had 2. So the 3 of us went there, partied like never before. I loved it coz I got to dance for 4-5 hours and then of course it did great for my self esteem. I was surprisingly popular. The whole night was nothing but great music. It was so great. We stayed until the end and got home around 5 am. That was the second night in a row! At least now I know I've not gotten old. It wasn't even hard for me. I'm still young and I'm apparently reasonably hot too ;)

I really need to go out more. It does me good