I know I have been neglecting my blog totally for a long time now. Honestly, that's because my life hadn't been so eventful and interesting. Until now. The past four weeks to be exact. I found someone. Someone amazing. Someone who is everything I ever wanted. And I find myself to be extremely happy and that is all I ever wanted to be. Happy.

just to name a few

tired, depressed, sad, miserable, thirsty, lonely, unhappy

Just the nicest day

I had a great day yesterday.I must say I have the best job.

..

:(

miami!!

It's almost time to go. I can't believe it's happening.

almost

two weeks for my vacation. Can't wait. I booked a ticket for Marlins vs Blue Jays game too. I wonder if my life wasn't so pathetic would I drink less wine? At least no one applied for my job so I can keep it a bit longer. yay

my stupid mind

I've let my brain dream too much, now when that thing doesn't happen I will be extremely disappointed.

Men..

You know I think I could see myself with an Irish bloke. Love the accent. Or maybe US marine or a navy guy.. I suppose there aren't many of any of those around here. And then there's the fact that being left alone with someone new freaks me out so much..

Just a thought pt 2

I want someone I can travel with, have outings with friends with, even spend time with families occasionally. Plus the other stuff.

just a thought

I so rarely ask for anything because the answer is always no. I have learned over the years that asking for something will only make me feel bad, so it's best just to avoid that..

stupid

Sometimes I wish I was an actress so I could at least pretend to be happy. Although thinking it one step further it probably wouldn't help anyway.

:(

Frustrating some days when there's no one to talk to... I think I have to start irc:ing again

Motivation is missing

I decided to really work hard on getting in bikini shape but I seem to be missing the motivation to do so. That is not good. The problem is not so much exercising less, which of course I do, but not that much, it's the lack of self control when it comes to unhealthy snacks :/ I keep telling myself I will get back on track when the snow is gone and temp is higher, that's when I'll try to start running again. And then I feel stupid for writing this down in case someone actually reads this stuff. Well I never said I was a good writer or even an interesting person. Oh but I wish I was, both.

miami

just so you know, my miami dates are set and everything is booked and paid for.

Miami!!

I am going to Miami. It's settled. It's not booked. Nor are the dates set. But I am going. Just bought a new suitcase. So all I need is spending money and clothes to wear. Oh and a week for the vacation.
The more I think about it the more I feel confident it is the right choice. I am traveling alone so I want it to be a reasonably safe destination where English is the main language so I will be understood and I will understand others. Miami is also hot and by the ocean and cheaper than New York. I have done a lot of research already. I know which bus to take to get to South Beach on Miami Beach where the hotel will be located. I know how much a week's bus pass will cost. I'm learning about tipping and sights and restaurants.
I was just reading a menu from Jerry's Famous Deli and I thought it looked quite expensive. I mean drinks are 9 dollar. Add a tip, you get to pay at least 10 dollars for one drink. But then I checked how much it is in "my money" and it's only 7,6 euros with the tip so basically the same price if not slightly cheaper. So even if I have to pay extra for everything, I might still not pay more than I would here. But then again I would not be eating and drinking out everyday for a week and pay a cleaner daily at home. Maybe a thousand euros will be enough. I made it sound like a small amount. At this moment it will be impossible for me to save that much, or at all to be honest. But if nothing else helps I can rely on a credit card. As a last possibility.

Nobody seems interested in my travel plans. Nobody. Hence I am pouring it out on my recently neglected blog. Maybe they just don't believe I'm going until everything is booked. Now I am interested in learning everything there is to know about Miami Beach and Miami. Everything I need to know about flying there and getting around and tipping and sights and neighborhoods and maps. I want to memorize the map of Miami as much as I can in order to navigate the streets and the busses without constantly looking at a map.

My life as an unemployed athlete

Being skint bothers me a lot. But I am also worried I won't have time for exercising when (if) I find a job. Stupid fear. But when you get used to working out 10-13 hours per week anything less will feel useless.
Update on my life: Nothing has changed, nothing has happened.

Thought I'd say something even though I have nothing to say.

New Year

Happy New Year!

This year I am going to get myself the body I deserve with all the hard work I've been doing. Just going to step it up a bit and make it happen.

My plan is to work out two hours/day, five times a week. Then on the sixth day I will do calisthenics at home. And have possibly one day to relax and let my muscles rest. I'm concentrating on the muscle classes mostly because Strong is the new skinny. I was told today that we have crossfit now also at our gym. It's only half an hour twice a week but that's still a chance to try it and get results. Pinterest fitness pins keep me motivated. I wish my printer worked so I could print some out and pin them around my flat.

There is one concern about all this. And that is money. Soon, in a few months, I will have to get by with a LOT less and that would mean I couldn't afford my membership anymore. I mean if I still wished to eat. So now Universe, I would need things to get alright preferably asap so I could stop worrying and just live my life and achieve my goals.

For some reason I have not been feeling like drinking wine lately either. I suppose it must be my subconscious is telling me I need to (I decided I would anyway) drink less in order to get faster progress.

One of the locations of the gym has a brand new infrared sauna. I'm liking it very much since it is supposed to burn fat and do tons of other good stuff. Don't know if I quite believe it but it's worth a try.