xmas shopping

Today was the day R went to Ireland. I was a bit scared about his flight. The weather really wasnt all nice and clear. But everything went fine it was a rather smooth flight. And yes I'm very jealous. Why dont I ever get to go anywhere?????
The all time greatest lotto price was cut in half and I got nothing. As usual.

Our Ideapark trip was a short one this time. Only 4,5 hours. I spent about 55 euros and what did I get? only three presents!! I suppose I'll have to buy cheaper gifts for everyone else.

What can I get for daddy?

Now I'm feeling strangly empty. Miss my honey.

Though I thought lots of things happened and I'd have plenty to say I got nothing.

blah..

Happy thanksgiving everyone!!

It seems that most people have something they always wanted to do or are (and always have been) good at something. Perhaps a favorite subject at school that they want to continue to study or an artistic tendencies.. I dont have anything like that. At least to the extend where it would help career-wise. I suppose my only talent would be knowing the us states in alphabetical order plus their capitals. and being able to locate each state on the map. It's not a very special talent. Not a talent at all. A result of years of practising. The only thing that makes it even slightly unique is the fact that I dont suppose there are too many Finns who can do the same.
I wish there was something I was good at or at least something I would be super interested in.
I love singing but that's not an option since.. oh well I sound horrible.
It is just one of those times when lots of things start to cause stress and then I start worrying about lots of other things at the same time. I just want to be happy! Why is it too much to ask?
I dont want to be poor anymore :(

at the dentist

This was my very first drilling experience. Something I had been dreading for years. Not so many 24-year-olds are this inexperienced when it comes to holes in their teeth. I must have very strong teeth.
So it's been to numb or not to numb for a long time, listening to people tell horror stories about their dental visits. Some say it doesnt hurt at all some say it hurts really bad. Others say the needle hurts more than the drill. With all these mixed stories it was really difficult to choose what to do. The answer came actually only a day before. Yesterday. At lunch. Talking with Mari. She said some people who fear the doctor listen to music while they operate. This was brilliant!! What could be better? I started feeling brave and strong I decided to tell the doctor I dont need to be numbed. I'd be willing to try without, but with music in my ears.

She started drilling and I found myself thinking what was all the fuss about? I cant feel a thing. At least anything unpleasant. Then in comes one of the nurses or another doc, not sure, saying that the fire alarm went off, cant you hear it? So it was off to the street for the whole gang.

It was funny to see how slowly people react to fire alarms. Horrible noise but people are just wondering what is going on and do we really have to go out.. And it took quite a long time for the fire fighters to arrive. Coming slowly, walking in, asking if anyone knows where the alarm began and where the fire alarm box (or whatever) is.. Not a care in the world. I suppose they would have needed a lot of smoke to move faster. It doesnt really matter since it was a false alarm but it took us out in the freezing cold for 15-20 minutes.

Back in the chair. Doc kept on drilling and I was trying to concentrate on the music but kept stopping it in case the doc said something. Suppose I'm such a curious person that I cant just relax and let them do their thing, I want to know what is happening. Absorb information.

It took a long time to drill. In the end, at times, I felt something a bit unpleasant but cant really say it hurt. And it was like a second at a time. The suction was more painful. Now there is something white in my tooth. It feels weird.

I thought she would have done all the holes at this visit.. Or maybe she would have if it hadnt been for the fire alarm. Said that next time she'll probably have time to do the last 2 since I dont need the numbing and they are small. This one was a big hole. So this means 3 holes in 24 years. And only one is a bad one.

On the bus on the way home I found myself thinking what would it cost to go see a private doctor later on.. They dont ever seem to have price lists online or anywhere. I dont think I'd like to wait another 7-8 months for a new appointment with the public dental care. Dont think I'd be as lucky to get the same doc again.. She's a good doctor. Estonian I think. Might have thought she was German before but Estonian makes more sense. Her last name doesnt sound anything like German.

busy saturday

It's 5:42pm and this is my first moment to myself all day.
I have been doing so much today. Started by carrying paper trash out.. Took 2 trips. Next step might have been vacuuming. Then I decided I would scan all my salary papers to my computer. Easier access. Then it was time to go grocery shopping. That was an expensive trip and I dont have much money left. But it's alright more is coming on Friday. Just this morning I started thinking about making the xmas cookies today. (gingerbread cookies or whatever they are called). I was supposed to do all that closer to xmas but this weekend is just as good as any. So got home and started doing the dough. When it was cooling down in the balcony I went to the basement to search for xmas curtains and other xmassy stuff. I found perfectly good pants. Barely used. Bought them nearly two years ago and then soon they got large. Now unfortunately I've almost grown back into them. Then I ironed the curtains and some table cloths. Only got curtains for kitchen. I thought I'd have more but the apartment with the similar height rooms was smaller. We have wider windows here. So those that used to be in the living room in the old place are now in the kitchen. Kitchen is actually the only room that looks xmassy now.
I'm pretty sure I did something before finishing the dough, but I just can't remember what. After the dough I think I read all the xmas ads for inspiration. Tried to take a picture of the circular saw R wants to sell. Then I decided to see online what kind of recipes there would be for mushroom sauce. This made me realize I need an onion. Just had to go get one. After coming back I chopped the onion and garlics ready and potatoes too. Everything is ready to be cooked when the clock hits six. 8 minutes left.
I still have more scanning to do but I think tomorrow after the piparis would be fine.

green home

We have taken a step towards more green home. We got our first energy saver light bulbs yesterday. The funny thing about those is the time it takes to light up. It "starts" slowly and takes a while to reach full light. Interesting. Is that the key to it's energy saving?

And our electricity is 100% wind power.

Boy, arent we green :)

snow&parking

There's something I've been wondering for a long time. When the ground is white, why do people lose the ability to park?
Why does a parking area of 10 spaces suddenly only fit 8 cars? Why do they have to leave their cars much farther than before the snow? Someone might try to say that it is because you cant see the lines of the space anymore. But what if you couldnt even see them without the snow? Lots of people have to struggle finding a space for their car because of the idiots who have parked before them..

Snow fight!!!

The gound has been white only for a little while and already I got hit by a snow ball. On Facebook though. Since there is no need for people to actually meet anymore these days even snow ball fights have turned electric. It is not as much fun, but is less dangerous and messy.

This sudden winter has made my legs itch. and that is because my skin gets dry when it's cold. It's funny how fast my body reacts to this coldness and snow. First my hair now my legs.

It is really very beautiful outside. Although I'm not the biggest fan of snow I have to admit it looks very nice. And now everything is just so light! Even in the middle of the night it's not very dark. And I don't mind that. The darkness was getting to me. Making me more tired and depressed even.

I would like a massage. It's a shame I have to pay for it. And I can't afford to.. So I'm stuck. And even if I could afford it how would I know where to go? Who is a good masseur? I need someone who won't try to make a lot of chitchat, that is a sure way to not help me relax.

I suppose I must continue scanning..

Xmas just got better

I had already given up hope of any extra holidays over the holiday season. But now I got 2!! So I'll be having 7 days of relaxing over the holidays. Fantastic! And I intend to relax.

I had a brilliant idea for a blog post in my head earlier today.. I just have absolutely no idea what it was now!!

This has got to be the longest week of my life! I cannot believe it's only Tuesday!! It just can't be.

Next week I'm getting my first taste of Buzzador. See what it is all about. And it's not a bad way to start. Getting free(expensive) cat litter and food. More of these.

I've been 24 hours away from blogs and already I'm behind reading 3 posts.

Since I've got nothing real to say I'm going to stop now.

grrrrrrr

this is a very shitty day. I feel horrible.
If I wasnt so busy I'd do something to take my mind of bad things. Last time I felt awful for a long time I used country music and James Bond to help. I've been listening to so much country lately it probably won't help. So it's up to James. Have to see if I can find some good clips on YouTube. We have a DVD-drive on this work computer, I could always bring my own Bond tomorrow if I still feel like it.
I think I need something romantic in my life. Something that would make me feel better about myself. But all I can do is dream about it.

Bad day - depressing blogs..

I need James right now

I miss going out

Lately I have started missing going out. Having fun. For a long time I was happy to have some alone time at home some evenings but it's all gone now. It may be a phase but this is how I feel.

Sitting alone at home sucks today. I dont want to eat anything, drink anything nor watch telly.
It is Rauta-Otra's xmas party tonight.

All I can do is sit on the sofa with my new singables playlist on my ipod and sing..

It seems that blogging isnt a thing I want to be doing tonight..

Big dilemma..

I suppose I'll just see what Marc and Megan have written and then get more bored..

Have a nice weekend...

Zzzzzzz

I can't believe it's only 7:30 pm. I feel as if it should be at least 10pm.
Woke up at 5am.
It was a really weird day. So messy and different. I must admit I sort of enjoyed it. Had million different things to do not just enveloping those **** invoices all day. Even got to use my head a little. It's a nice change.
I was meaning to take a nap after work but realized that if I want to sleep in tomorrow I must stay up all day.
I really need to start watching more tv shows. I don't have enough episodes saved when I need them. I was wondering if Mad Men is any good.. Should I check it out? Already added NCIS to my must-see list.
CSI taping was cut short. I don't know how much I missed. They shouldnt show so many ads if they cant keep the shows within the time limits..
Daniel Bedingfield's song If You're Not The One is absolutely fantastic.

I suppose tomorrow must be a cleaning day.. I have spread a lot of my hair all over the floor.. and the cat litter needs changing.. When do I have time to relax? and what is the best way to do that anyway?

gosh it's raining again..

BP 111/64 Pulse 56

I'm really tired. Had a rather terrible night. I'm planning to nap after work. At least I am not busy now.. You might have guessed.. since I have time to check my blood pressure and all.

I got my name to X-partner. Hopefully this year they'll send me a xmas present and not just Henna like last year.

You know what? I think it's a shame so few people blog. I mean of my friends. Only three active bloggers but they are all from the other side of the world. It would be fun to read about what's going on in everyone's life..

I'm far too tired to think of anything to say. Just can't wait to get home and harvest the latest crop in MyFarm.

dentist's appointment

it was today.
I went to this private practise and it was really nice. Fancy chairs and nice carpets. Music.
The dentist was 10 minutes late. I think she's German. At least she has a ü in her name.
It took about five minutes. She checked my teeth and counted maybe 4 holes. Might not fix all of them, the one(s) below are so small. So I'll be going back in two weeks. Makes me wonder why couldnt it be done today? Is it only a way to bill me more? no x-rays taken. Didnt say anything about my wisdom teeth. The dental hygienist thought they might need to be removed. The doctor said nothing. Well maybe next time.
All and all my teeth are in quite good condition. 4 holes in 24 years is not bad, is it?

After I got myself some nuts from w&s. Came home and watched desperate housewives, Le Divorcé and heartbeat.

I thought about going swimming. Would have been a perfect day for that, but I felt totally out of energy. Figured I'd waste my money if I went. Thursday, on thursday I'll go. Can't really afford swimming this month.. shame.

I'm really tired.

can't sleep

I started thinking about r's ireland trip and it got me all down. Do I really have this low self-esteem that I can't believe him when he says he would have wanted me to go with him? The fact that he got the tickets first and then told me he is going doesnt help much.
i wouldnt have been able to go anyway since i'm totally broke this month and dont even have a passport.
I dont believe in words. People can easily say anything. To get what they want or to just say what the other person wants to hear. This is why I'm a firm believer of actions. As they say: actions speak louder than words. I dont like this. Being uncertain. Always wondering. It's not fun or fair.

But hey, it's 1:18am and I'm getting up in about 5 hours and still havent been able to sleep.. dwelling in self pity. Just ignore all this, I'm tired and it's late.

I'm a bit frustrated.. I know what they'd say if this was a movie... but i'm not telling you. haha

style

I know I'm not the most stylish person, or even close, but sometimes I just see people and can't help thinking "what is he/she thinking".
There's a woman on the bus in the mornings. She is short and chubby. Her head is tiny and she has had her hair cut short. But she never does her hair. It's just flat. It looks awful. I mean why bother paying for having it cut and dyed with 2 colors if you're just going to ignore it?

There's a man at work who wear glasses. Luckily not all the time. Those glasses really really don't suit him at all. Did he buy them without trying them on? Did someone else buy them for him? What was he thinking of?

And then there is this girl at work. She tries to be stylish. She's had her hair cut fashionably. Tries to follow fashion i her clothing too. She fails. Terribly. It just looks weird. Following fashion trends just doesn't suit everybody.

And then there's me.. Nothing really suits me. Everything looks a bit off. Most of my clothes are in the category of whatwasithinkingof.. I know I should spend more money on my appearance, but I just can't afford and can't.. be bothered.. because everything will look awful on me anyway. So what's the point? Just trying to choose good colors for me. If only I could get thin arms I'd look different in everything.. I'm just about to give up hope.. :(

yesterday at the pictures

The Brits do have some fun expressions.

Tonight is the premier night of the new James Bond movie. I saw it yesterday :) haha. Xerox offered us a free preview with free snacks!!

It started out with a very exciting car chase. I was in awe. Wondering how was it done. I looked so dangerous. The movie was filled with a lot of fighting scenes. Bond, James Bond never said it like that once. I don't think he ever even said his name in the film. Nor did he order a vodka martini. Oh yeah and he didn't sleep with the Bond girl. Would you have guessed that?
But you know what? I didn't miss any of those things. James Bond has moved to the 21st century. He is more serious, he is tougher, sexier and classier. Me like. heee. I have accepted Daniel Craig as Bond straight away, since I'm not really too keen on hairy blokes. But honestly, that's not the reason. I'm not one of those girls who look at him and only see his abs. I think he gives some sort of depth or something to the character of James, the others didn't.

All in all the movies was good despite the fact that the story wasn't as clear and straight-forward as Casino Royale. It was still highly entertaining. If you're at least one bit interested in Bond movies, this is a must-see.

Someone won the James Bond Encyclopedia! Oh boy was I jealous. I'm such a Bond fan I'm going to add that book to my xmas wish list.

Each time a new Bond movie is released I start feeding my old fantasies of becoming a secret agent. I could never do that for real but it just seems like so much fun and.. well glamorous.
About a year ago, it was one of those busy work days(hahaa) when we noticed that MI5 is hiring!! How cool is that?! Our excitement ended soon when we realized that you needed have lived in the UK for at least 10 years to be eligible.. Bummer... There goes that dream again.

Good choice America!!

It seems like you're going to get a great president next year. He seems like a very smart man. Today I feel really sorry for not being an American.. I want to see the victory speech but you have no idea how difficult it was to find a working version of it. All the websites I found it on didnt work for one reason or another. Even Youtube made it hard. But managed to find it eventually.

When I was thinking about this week's swimming I forgot I have plans for thursday and friday already, so those need to be counted out and since I skipped monday and tuesday I only have today. And I won't be swimming for three hours today so I suppose I'll be forced to live with one time only.

I'm feeling sick. I couldn't resist those All Sorts yesterday so I bought a bag of them. Finished them today (mainly for breakfast...) Now I feel horrible.

I've been learning geography again. I figured that since I know the states and their capitals I could expand to other countries. Africa is going to be tricky. It has always been difficult but I have always passed nicely at school.

This has stopped making any sense again so I'll just stop. ok?

election day

I'm excited. Can't wait for the results.
Suppose I'm a bit weird. Getting all excited about something that really has nothing to do with me.
Still I'm going to wait and see how many sensible people are living in America.
Well that's tomorrows thing.

I saw fresh All Sorts.. I'm fighting the urge to go and buy lots of them. It's going to be easy. The restaurant closes in 17 minutes and those are far too expensive. I was thinking that if I still got to have them after work, I could buy some from the grocery store for a lot less. After the swim. Must go swimming today. Didn't go yesterday. I still got enough money on my bus card for one more time in the pool.

The air in this room is awful. I'm going to start feeling headachy and sick soon.. Sooner than I can get out of here. Getting out in the fresh air won't help.

I'm a bit ashamed to admit but I have been watching one Finnish tv-show. Salkkarit doesn't count. I mean Tukka Auki. Why on earth am I watching something like that? At least I'm not addicted. But this week is a good tv-week since Grey's Anatomy and C.S.I are starting again and the finnish version of the game show Are You Smarter than a 5th grader or whatever it is..

Oh yeah today is the 70-month anniversary of me&r. Not too bad, huh?

i'm in pain

I had to stop scanning before I could really start.. I got a few piles scanned but then my arm just got too bad. It hurts when I have to lift anything, anything at all, no matter how light. Neck is not so stiff anymore. Do I have to ache somewhere all the time?!? First the neck, now the arm, what happens tomorrow?

I asked my boss to order more those exercise vouchers so I can go swimming.

I'm really disappointed with the F1 results. Though I have to admit I slept through most of the race yesterday but I saw 2 last laps and that's when it got interesting. It looked like Massa was going to win the Championship until the last half of the last lap. When Glock let Hamilton pass. Very disappointing.

Yeah well.. I got nothing more

the morning after

Actually it is the evening after the greatest night of the year or something like that.
And no I didn't just wake up. I got up this morning with a hang-over. I was so sure I wouldn't feel bad at all. I didn't drink very much but it was such a mixture of so many things, no wonder I felt horrible. Didn't throw up. It wasnt that bad. And it went past quite fast. Enough about my hangover. who cares, right?

The Apollo night club is absolutely perfect. I had such fun there. The music was brilliant. We danced the whole time we were there. No one even thought about sitting down at any point. And the place wasn't too crowded. Plenty of room on the dance floor.

We ran into two girls from work at the toilets right after we got in. One of them gave us small spider rings. Spider power!! I almost lost mine a couple of times. hihii and Jesse from work(my actual colleague, the girls are working for the other company) was there. Apparently he is a regular. He was fun to watch dance. Quite hilarious.

We left at 2am. Elli wanted to catch the last bus and I though I'd go too but I missed my bus. The bar was a bit too far from the bus stop and we left too late. I passed my friends offers to sleep at their places, wanted to get home to my honey. So I took a cab. Too expensive. But I rather pay myself sick to get home than wake up feeling horrible on someone elses couch.

**** I'm poor again...

Today I got a call from daddy. Said they have bags and bags of old and brand new clothes about to be thrown away. Asked if me and my sis would want to go see if there is something we'd like.
So we did. There really were a lot of clothes. I got some nice things. Funny how there were so many sizes. There would have been more nice shirts but they were too short..

On the way back we had to pick up R's friend coz he was coming to sauna with him and lives quite near my dad.

Now I'm wearing my new shirt I bough yesterday and my new capris and my new beautiful pink scarf that matched perfectly the color of my shirt.

My neck is really killing me now. Lying on the couch feeling horrible this morning made it so stiff.

Yeah I guess that's it