going out

Ok. Going out for the first time in ages. This of course calls for all sorts of girly things like face masks and special conditioner for my hair. Oh and full make-up. Just for fun obviously.

Still gotta wait for about an hour before I can leave. We're going to see how our friend lives first and then we're off to the 90s bar or night club whatever you wanna call it.

I'm starting to get excited. Though I'm a bit tired. I won't be staying too late. And I won't drink too much. I don't want a hang-over. Although I can't remember the last time I'd been suffering the morning after. Luckily I'm nearly skint so I won't be spending too much in any case. Even had to buy that shirt just to have something to wear. It'd look just fine if I had a smaller belly.. :(

it's pouring again

Now I can't wear my lovely lovely shoes tonight. I'll go on my sneakers.. How uncool.
Anyway I think the rest of my outfit will be equally uncool so it won't matter. I'm going to try to buy something half decend after work.. I really don't have any nice clothes.. At least anything that would fit me.. hopeless. It is usually not such a big deal. All I ever do is go to work and come back home again. So I'll spend most of my time in my work clothes. But things change when I have to go out.. where there's people.. who'll see me without my coat on.. Frustrating.

I'm quite bored right now. Half an hour to any action. I'm still at work. Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining. I like these moments of ease.

My umbrella is broken. I'm going to soak out there. ****.

Oh **** work.. These people should bring those darn invoices here a bit earlier. You know what's funny? People with good jobs seem to be the people who know the least. We get such stupid questions and things here you wouldnt believe it..

sooo lazy today

At work. Pretty busy day. But feeling so lazy. And not just me, my co-worker too.. I'm not really tired as such..
I think perhaps the cod-liver oil pills are starting to take effect. Feeling a bit more awake. Though I havent had very long sleeps at nights. It's also very possible my 2,5-3h naps have something to do with it..
Suppose I'll have to swim today. Just in case I'll decide to shop tomorrow or something else happens. Tomorrow is the day we're going out with the girls, or I'm going out with the girls. going to check out this 90s bar. Perfect for us. I'm just a bit ashamed to go out since I got absolutely no good clothes.. I have three shirts that are barely tolerable, not for public wearing really.. And then a few tees but will I freeze in a tee? And most importantly do I have a good t at all? Been reading Sophie Kinsella's Shopaholic book now so I'm getting a small shopper bug bite.. If only there were any clothes that would look at least ok on me.. I'm too small for the BiB clothes and too big for the regular stuff. And it seems no matter how little I eat and how much I swim I just get bigger all the time. That's not fair. I'm about to give up. I need a miracle.
And yet I made toffee last night. It turned out good although I was a bit hasty. I didnt wait for it to turn brown so it's a weird yellow. But tastes nice all the same. Basically nothing but sugar and cream.. so unhealthy. Not something I ought to be having but I'm frustrated.

I better finish now. Soon I'll have to get back to work.. :(

short day.. or should I say long?

It was a nicely short day at work. Only four hours.
This gave me a lot of time to swim. I had huge plans. I was going to swim at least 2,5 hours.
I gave up after 1h45min. I was getting a bit cold and I lost all my energy. Should have bought the energy drink R recommended.
Soon after I went to do the shopping so I could relax the rest of the evening and as I sat down for my dinner, I was a bit shocked to see the time. It was only 4.30pm. It's so dark it's hard to estimate the time. We'll have tacos later.
Now I just want to eat more. Something. But not anything.

I just finished watching mondays episode of Desperate Housewives. Who is mr Williams and most importantly who is the person he wanted to move to Wisteria Lane for? I think we're only a few episodes behind America so it is possible no one knows :)

For a long time I was disappointed with Wednesdays Tv shows. Or the lack of them. There was nothing good on after Salkkarit. And now, next week there'll be 2 must-see shows at the same time!?! CSI and Grey's Anatomy.

I find myself thinking I should have made more effort on the ITC critique. Now it is just messy bunch of ideas without much logic.

Now I'm very tired. Could take a nap.
These fabulous bodies on telly are making me miserable.

If Tomorrow Comes

Now it is watched.
I have to comment.
In the very beginning we see New York City. This is when I started getting a bit nervous. Why are they showing NYC when Tracy is from Philly? Then she is at her apartment doing those tai ji or whatever exercises.. Now how it went. Then picture moves to New Orleans. To a hotel?!?!?! Her mother did not live in a hotel. And she chose bright red night gown so the blood wouldnt show and she called her daughter just before putting the gun into her head. In the movie she is sitting in her hotel room in a pink negligee and takes the gun out - no phone call.
Charles and Tracy are at a party on a boat owned by Jeff's upcoming first wife. Tracy and Jeff meet there for the first time too.

This is all wrong. I mean I can understand they start telling Jeffs story from the beginning at the same time but like this?
So many things could have been just as easily made like in the book and it was not and it bugs me. Like the color of the nighty. Why pink?

Otto Schmidt is not Otto anymore, he is Hans. Hans?!? Why change the name?
The scene at the Romano mansion is all wrong. And even more wrong after the shot. Why does she run? into a cop and says I killed him? The book version was much much better. Why is she accused of attempted murder when the point in the book was theft? Dvd adds the murder charge on top of the theft.. The first moments in the prison are cleaned from the book version. Everything is all wrong in prison. It is far too light there. Bertha is not a big, fat and ugly Swedish woman. But a thin American woman without Swedish accent. And she is waiting to kill T, not "love" her. Isolation, comfy, light room with a sink and a toilet and a bed. So basically a normal cell for one person.

No nononononononono No.

Well that's the worst parts of the prison time.
Her revenge was a disappointment. Some parts were like the book and some were left out. Good stuff was left out.
In the book she sees Charles with his wife in a restaurant in Philly and decides their miserable faces are a punishment enough. In the mini series she finds them in a restaurant (in ny) with his parents and she tells him off..

The bank didnt seem to owe her money which was a shame.
After her first diamond robbery in Long Island she goes to Europe. (btw at the house she asks the policeman inside to check no one is there yet doesnt let him in.. suspicious. Tracy wouldnt do that.) I was so looking forward to the chess scene in the ship only to see a scene where an airplane lands in London. Big disappointment. At that point I was almost mad. Later on she goes on a Mediterranean cruise. That's where it happens. This was done close enough to the original.
The train part. She was nervous! Clumsy. And the Italians were in separate compartments.. :(
I'm still missing the job she does in London.. The jeweler. Texan woman. And most of all the Madrid job.
The part where she steals a painting from a house she just attended as a guest to a party.. All wrong. Sure there were those infrared beams but she went alone. Jeff came after. To take care of her. Her spanish accent bothered me. It was just so unnatural.

Moving on..
She got sick far too early for the airplane job. They didnt hide in the safe house. He found her there and took to some country side hotel somewhere. In the dvd the safe house was the hotel. weird.
Interpol was after her far too early. This was not cool. Oh and Cooper tried to kill Tracy after the Amsterdam job. What was that all about?

Daniel Cooper was way off. I got the idea that he is a self-controlled, obsessive man. And somehow I cannot see a man like that with a beard. Can you? Bad casting.
I think after all Jeff was quite a good choice. Tracy was perhaps a bit off.. Close but not quite. Günther was great. Ernestine not bad.. not too bad. She didnt seem as tough as I imagined her.
Back to the plot. The last gig. Jeff didnt really attack anyone in the book. Didnt like that part. Much better in the book.

I'm sure I'm forgetting a lot which I have thought and wanted to share about the film. I think my problem is that I've read the book about ten million times. It was alright, after all. I hope reading my criticism isnt stopping you from watching it. Master of the Game is coming soon on DVD. How can I resist? I must have that too...

A fun detail added to the last part on the plane when Tracy finally meets Maximilian Pierrepoint. She is reading Sheldon's The Naked Face. Hahahaaa.

i stole this from tina

She had a post called 10 years of email or something like that.
I wanted to check when I created my very first email account and it was August 25 1998. I remember it. It was IT class in middle school. And I'm still using it. Plus I got four other email addresses I use frequently.
So I could also say 10 years of email for me too. It's quite a long time, 10 years. Luckily there is no way of counting the hours I've spend online.. It would probably be months..

friday

It was a horrible day.
Busy.
Somehow I found myself dreaming of diving into the pool and swimming for ages after work. I think that's a good sign. If I want to relax by doing something like that. And then the idea of sauna seemed perfect. So that's what I did. It was great.
Though the day had seemed terrible till then, it started getting much better after. I suppose I'd have to say the highlight of my day was the message I received from my friend. It said If Tomorrow Comes is on DVD now on the book club. This is something we have both been waiting for for so long. We were afraid we'd never be able to see it. And now it is possible. Fantastic. This means I am going to have to spend the last of my money on it tomorrow. For two reasons. a) I can't wait and b) I can save a lot on postage when getting it from the store. And I'm not going to trust there'd be any left next friday when I get more money.
TeliaSonera decided to bill me again. We haven't had their internet for over a month and still there was the invoice. But since it was electric it might have come automatically because of that. I deleted it. Hope they won't make any trouble. I sure ain't gonna pay for something I'm not using. And I know the contract has ended coz I can't get to my sonera mail anymore.
I'm so proud of myself. I've stayed away from chocolates and candy for nearly three weeks now. or exactly three weeks. I did have ice cream on wednesday but it was b&j's. :)
I think I'm going to stop buying them now since none of the flavors sold are even nearly as good as Cherry Garcia. Damn those Europeans who didn't buy it enough to keep the production going on in Europe.
I think people should blog more. I don't know many people who do. It would be so interesting to know what's going on in people's lives.. Or is it that I don't have a life and everyone else does?

thursday

Yesterday I finally got the application sent. Taking that photo turned out to be a lot harder than I thought. Good thing it was taken by professional. I got a code which I can use from july next year to see the status of my application. I mean almost a year later!!?! A long wait.
After that I went to get myself a vegesub and a pint of chunky monkey. When I got home I had to check the american subway site what is vege sub called in english for real. It's veggie delight. How delightful, would you say? And it was absolutely perfect, as usual. And I managed to eat only half a pint of the ice cream. Of course I've been dreaming about the rest of it all day. Wishing someone would bring it here at work. This has got to be the longest day ever. It just doesn't seem to end.
I have to swim today, I'm running out of days this week and only once have I done it so far.. And my neck is killing me. Or then I could just skip today and swim for two hours on Tuesday.
Oh my neck is really killing me. It has never been this bad. I don't know what to do with it.

wednesday

Time flies past so fast these days. This year I forgot to wait for the results of last years DV Lottery and most importantly I forgot to wait for it to start again. Just suddenly realized it is time for it now.
Still I haven't been able to enter. My problem being the picture. Where do I get a recent photo of me, face front with nothing on the background and no shadows? In my last years photo there was a little part of the sofa behind me. That might have caused me to be eliminated. So this time I'm going to be very careful with the photo. This is the third time I'm entering.

Wish me luck. I really want to win

bad idea

My brilliant idea of flying to Chicago and flying back from Minneapolis is not so brilliant. Too expensive to take two one way journeys. Unless some agency will give me a good deal which I doubt. Back to the original plan..

impatience

I've been thinking a lot about my American trip. It's gotta be next summer because I won't be getting enough time off before my holidays. That also means plenty of time to save the needed money. I've been looking for flight prices to see how much I'm short. Then I need spending money. Everything is so much cheaper there so I'm going to have to do a lot of shopping. I was thinking of limiting my journey (this time) to the Chicago-Minneapolis line. So that would mean flight to O'hare and then go to Madison and then to Minneapolis and back. Unless!! I could always fly back from Minneapolis. There's a thought. And I was thinking, that since I'm going to Chicago I can't leave the city without seeing it. If I were to get a lot of money I could fly first class. Wouldn't that be great? Or go via New York and stay there a couple of days. That would be absolutely fantastic. And really not going to happen. I'm not lucky enough.
I feel like since I've accomplished nothing in my life, this will give me one accomplished thing. Then I can think of "settling down". Whatever that means.. Then I suppose I won't feel like such a failure.

this is my 50th post

wohoo.
This is the sixth day in this **** lobby. I'm so sick of it. The scanner is still broken. It has been since last Monday. The computer guy didn't show up. He might come at noon. There's a disaster waiting on the tables. Not really looking forward to it. But luckily I don't have to be here tomorrow.
I'm so tired. Had really weird dreams last night. The last dream was rather interesting. First of all Tammerkoski was huge. A lot bigger than it actually is. There were this huge old factory buildings that were renovated into apartments. We just moved in there. It was expensive but the price includes fancy lunch everyday. I was pregnant. It was a boy. And I was really worried and upset cos naming a boy is really difficult. I don't know any good boy's names. It was a weird dream. Wouldn't mind living in a place like that. Free lunch everyday and a fabulous view.

I was looking myself in the mirror and felt sick. Today i'm going to test the gym at the swimming hall. I just hope my muscles won't be this sore after work anymore. I used my abs wheel again on saturday and could barely move yesterday. I'm going to get tension headache later today. I just know it. Just like everyday last week. Now i've even started feeling dizzy. That's a bit scary.

There is absolutely nothing for lunch today. I suppose I'll have to take a sandwich. Had an apple for brekkie. I'll be terribly hungry by lunch time. But I'm training myself into eating less. I used to be able to work 8 hour-days without eating anything. This place has ruined me. Nothing good can be said about this job. Nothing at all. And still no big (or small) lotto winning. So unfair.

Yesterday there was opera on tv. There was this man who had a regular sized head, tiny body and supershort arms. I didn't laugh. I didn't think it was funny. All I could think of was at least he can sing. I wasn't really feeling sorry for him as much as I was feeling sorry for me. He could sing. I can do nothing. I really do need a self-confidence boost but I don't know where to get it..

I just want to go back to sleep.

There is still no sign of the dishwasher we were supposed to get in July. I've lost all hope. And I can't afford it now anyway. It would just be nice to be told that it is not coming at all. Wouldn't have to worry about it.

I've started thinking about xmas presents. So here are somethings I've had on my mind:
- Playstation 2 (with guitar hero, singstar, buzz, crash team racing...)
- Nero dishes
- water-proof mp3 player
- Leopard (10.5)
well now I can't think of anything more. I'll tell more later when I've thought of more, ok?

Unusual Saturday

I'm so used to being alone on Saturdays. R is usually at work. Today is his day off. I feel like Sunday. So weird.
Yesterday I went grocery shopping and left my phone at home. When I got to the store and didn't find it in my purse I felt lost. I couldn't think straight. All I could think about what that my phone was not with me. Try to decide what to eat when you can't think straight. It was horrible. Well at least I knew it was at home so I didn't have to worry about its location too.
Think I have solved my swimming problem. I just have to load 20e on my bus card that'll give me five more times in the pool (3.60e/time, so five times, right?) and I still have four of the vouchers.. That should get me through the next three weeks. If I can stick to three times a week. Then I should be able to get more of the vouchers.
For a "water-beast" such as myself I'm not that good with water.. I love to swim but I need goggles and that nose clip to make it smooth. Otherwise I'd just inhale a lot of water and it would be horrible.
Two weeks ago, just when I was starting it I was dreaming of a water-proof mp3 player. Coz the only thing missing is music in the water. And then I found it online! There really is such a thing as a water-proof mp3 player. How great is that!?! The only problem is... I dont have extra 80e to buy that.. Suppose I'll just have to cope without music. Unless someone wants to get me one for xmas. hinthinthint..
Now I'm hungry.. I have some chicken in the oven.. Thinking of making a wok out of it.. Bought noodles and we have some old wok veggies in the freezer.. Hope it'll be fine.

been away for so long.
just busy swimming all the time.
it's just so much fun. got myself the full gear, hat, goggles and the nose clip. now I can swim without inhaling too much water. would need a new suit. the old one is falling apart.
just want to go home and pack my swimming stuff and hit the pool again.
But what will I do when I run out of the exercise vouchers??!?! Only have five left. still weeks left of this month. luckily I get more next month but that's next month. I dont think I can afford to buy 10x card.. or could I?
I might grow out of it if I have to be away for too long.
I suppose this is enough for now. very boring stuff.