impatience

I've been thinking a lot about my American trip. It's gotta be next summer because I won't be getting enough time off before my holidays. That also means plenty of time to save the needed money. I've been looking for flight prices to see how much I'm short. Then I need spending money. Everything is so much cheaper there so I'm going to have to do a lot of shopping. I was thinking of limiting my journey (this time) to the Chicago-Minneapolis line. So that would mean flight to O'hare and then go to Madison and then to Minneapolis and back. Unless!! I could always fly back from Minneapolis. There's a thought. And I was thinking, that since I'm going to Chicago I can't leave the city without seeing it. If I were to get a lot of money I could fly first class. Wouldn't that be great? Or go via New York and stay there a couple of days. That would be absolutely fantastic. And really not going to happen. I'm not lucky enough.
I feel like since I've accomplished nothing in my life, this will give me one accomplished thing. Then I can think of "settling down". Whatever that means.. Then I suppose I won't feel like such a failure.