Vappu

To be accurate Vappu isnt until tomorrow, but tomorrow is more like the national hang-over day.
Today is the day for celebrations.
This is the first year when this day's been absolutely meaningless to me. I've no plans.
Might get a bottle of wine. Or cider.

http://ekabini.blogspot.com/2007/04/sunnuntai-klikkailtavaa-blogien-parhaat.html is the source for this picture. Typical Vappu things, munkkis, sima and serpenttiini

Good thing today's going to be "hot" and sunny, at least it is now.
The salary came today. I think the money is again all spent already. In my head at least. This sucks. I need a raise. A big one.
The region manager came by yesterday and had a problem with everyone's outfit. Now I have to wear a tent in the lobby. Some day, far too soon, we'll be getting white shirts to wear here. That's just great. Then everyone can see our bras. And it's not like I have a white one.. OR will ever find. Shopping for bras is really hard. Each time I manage to find a suitable one it is either black or purple. So basically a dark color that shines through a white shirt so easily. And then the other problem I have with white is the color. White is soooo wrong for me, makes me look ever fatter, which I really dont need. I look fat enough as it is. Then i'll just feel huge and ugly and miserable and will hate my job and myself more and more each day. That must be her plan.. the managers I mean. Make us all miserable so we wont be asking for a raise. Whereas she drives a brand new white station wagon.. And she can wear her own clothes..

I was supposed to bike to work this morning. Then I remembered that most places close at 6pm. I get off at 4 and I need to buy a lot of things, best just take the bus.
I need:
Shampoo
Conditioner
Toothpaste
HP Chilli
Garlick
Pirkka Kurkkusalaatti
New panties
A t-shirt
Hair dye
Wine
Food
Ben&Jerry's

Well this much I can remember now... Hopefully I'll remember the rest when I'm in the shops.

I had 4 pain killers yesterday. In three hours. It took 5 hours to kill the pain but not nearly as long to affect my brain. I was feeling a bit dizzy or unclear in the head for a while. Not something I want to do ever again, but what to do when you feel like dying once a month..? Perhaps I should see a doctor but that would require a phone call, which is something I hate and then I'd actually have to go there to talk about my issues.. Never liked seeing the doc.. I'm not all that good about talking and especially talking about my personal matters and feelings. So seeing a doctor isnt really fun for me.

so perhaps I'll return here later this afternoon, now I should really get some work done..

monday morning and already so pissed off

So we got the new work schedule. It's horrible and so unfair. The past two weeks I've had to wake up soo f* early to get to work by 7:15.. Now I'm in the lobby which means 7:45. I was supposed to get two weeks of 8:15 next. It was all in the plan I made. The working and fair work schedule. Why cant she just follow the plan? I'm really really mad right now.
When can I get some sleep? These are the times when I really, truly hate my job.
Right now I dont feel like working. A little stupid revenge for the a-hole. Table is full of piles to be scanned.
It figures it happens on a day like this, when it is so dark and gloomy. temperature isnt rising, there's not even a hint of sun.
it would be best if I could get the table cleared, but I've no energy nor motivation to do so.

so to something happier..
two more days till pay day. I've already almost spent the entire salary again.. At least in my head. This time I havent ordered any cd's. But I do have a book on the way. The new Marian Keyes. I dont remember if I already mentioned it.
I promised myself that since I had to eat chocolate ice cream yesterday I'd get 2 B&J's on wednesday. The chocolate ice cream was so bad. I found bohemian raspberry and vanilla toffee crunch in the near by store. Those two sound like great choices for me. But why did they change the name for piece of cake? strawberry cheesecake is perhaps a bit more clear name but a lot more boring too.
for a moment there I dreamed of buying a Kotipizza pizza but then I saw how much they cost these days.
Did I tell you about the credit card I'm getting? Not something I asked for, but since they are renewing the Stockmann member cards, changing them into MasterCards, what can I do?
I suppose it is good to have. Just in case. I might be a bit too afraid to use it so it wont be a problem. Let's hope so
So let's just have a fucking fantastic week, shall we?
Good thing thursday's May Day

saturday

just arrived home. and already a bit bored. took him to his friend and am looking for a lonely night. i kinda enjoy these moments to myself, i just cant think of enough things to do for the entire evening..
i have lots of movies and unwatched episodes of many shows. I could get some of them watched. Opened the first cider. have to have them drank soon if i have to go get him home later. need to get the alcohol off my system. i have this really cool shot glass, souvenir from america. it says: there's too much blood in my alcohol system. i laughed so much when i first saw it.

i found a cool new facebook application today. something to measure your brain power. it is so meant to be done with a desktop computer.. really hard to answer fast with laptop touchpad..

i had a goal today. to walk 10 000 steps. i thought i wouldnt come home until i had 10000 steps on my step counter.. i walked over an hour, for 7,3km, me feet and legs hurting like hell and the counter only said 4177 steps.. i couldnt believe it. i gave up and came home. then i did a little research on how long would one have to walk to get the steps done. it was estimated 6-9km. my free step counter doesnt seem all that accurate. glad i didnt really try to go to ten thousand according to it. i'd be unable to walk for a few days..
Yesterday i went to bodyattack for the first time in ages. it is really tough. i wish i had running shoes, then it would be a bit less bad. but i suppose if i could get myself do that at least once a week i'd be in shape in no time.
this must be all this time

friday and so tired

This morning on the bus I started thinking about my yesterdays post. I might have thought it was wednesday.. It was thursday. I might still remember it all wrong. Didnt even check what I wrote.
I dont tend to read what I've written. Might be full of typos and weird sentences. but who cares, right?
It's a perfectly lovely day. I'm really tired and can't seem to get any work done.
I lost my sunglasses last summer. Those are the only sunglasses that have ever suited me. I was getting desperate. Until December when I finally found them in a bag I've used like once.. Because we moved at the end of that month, they were lost again. Yesterday I thought to myself I wont rest until I find them. It's so sunny I really need them. I looked in one cupboard and that was all I needed. Why do I feel my earlier writings were a bit funnier? these seem so dull and pointless? perhaps I should get a bit drunk? ;)
I'm sitting in the lobby while my colleague is helping in the kitchen. whiping tables. I'm just glad I dont have to do that. I can sit here and look busy while I blog, facebook and read useless facts.
The funniest fact I read today goes like this: During the eighteenth century, books that were considered offensive were sometimes punished by being whipped.
It's amazing how stupid people can be.
Someone scared me with talk of coffee and cake. I had no idea what he was on about. But in the end it seems there is free coffee and cake in the near by bakery. I can't stand coffee. but cake is another thing...
time to go, till the next time

wednesday just before round

It's been such a busy day so far. I don't like days like this. I'd rather just be, hang around in Facebook or search for something fun. I did have a moment to look for trips to Tallinn and Stockholm. It's surprisingly cheap. So perhaps I'll visit both places in the summer. Shopping trips. Great, huh?

Yesterday I bought the shoes. The wonderful, cute shoes I've been dreaming of. I wasn't supposed to buy them just yet but Citymarket was cruel enough to advertise them. There weren't so many pairs left. I had to get mine before it was too late. And boy are they gorgeous!
Even had to wear them to work (or the way to work) just to be able to wear them :) I think now I'll save them for better weather.

The sun is hiding today. I feel a lot more tired because of it. It sucks.

I seem to have a problem with words today.. Can't seem to say anything. Everything seems so difficult.

The lunch menu lied to me. I was waiting for thursday and lasagna all week. Why say lasagna when you don't mean it? It's just evil!! It was lasagnette, which is sooo different. Doesn't taste anything like lasagna. If I'd have money I'd make some myself but since I don't get paid nearly enough I'm always skint at this time of the month.

It is the one year birthday of our local "mall". I think I might pop by to see if there's something for free. I could also finally check out Sauli City. It's so near and I've never been there. But I was thinking of buying cider from there next wednesday. Today i'm dreaming of the nut&fruit mixes they have, the real cheap ones.. yum

But now I should be getting ready for the round and then go home asap. Need to make up some extra hours. Hence I can leave before my shift ends

candy strike!

At work, the girls and I decided at the end of March that in April we'll keep away from candy, chocolate and other delicious, yet fattening treats.
A noble plan. Impossible promise to keep. for all of us.
How does one say no to a free chocolate bar? it is not possible.
this experience has taught me how silly it is to try to avoid something you cant stay away from.
I think I'd eat a lot less sweets if it wasn't so forbidden. There's no point, I can't even feel quilty.
Every wednesday is a pizza day at work. I've been trying to eat as little of it as I possibly can, max one piece, but today I just had to have 2. It was quite evil from the kitchen staff to make 2 different kinds of pizzas. How could I possibly choose between 2 delicious choices? chicken-kebab and salami-kebab. And they were both really really good.
Must exercise a bit today. Might cycle to citymarket to try on my new shoes. the ones I'm going to buy next wednesday(unless they're sold out by then). If it looks like there's not going to be a pair for me left on wednesday, I might have to borrow the money from my other account.. or order from ellos.
Somehow this got back to the shoes, how did that happen?

summer

Been thinking about doing this again. I had all these plans of writing how I decided to start my own blog since nearly everyone has it these days. That would have been a total lie. Done this twice before, or started at least. and now i found this old blog of mine and read the texts, I decided to continue where I left off. They weren't so bad, the old writings. A bit funny even. just a tiny bit. in a way.
yesterday I spend most of my work time (after everything work-related was done, obviously ;)) surfing the net looking for places to go on my holidays. I just have no idea how much money I have to spend. Cyprus seemed like a cheap and wonderful choice. since I cant afford to meet my newly found third cousin Sheena in Madison. this is another story for another time. It would be so great if I could afford to fly to chicago and still have money to spend(read:buy shoes). I hear shoes are mainly a lot cheaper there than here.
Would be so much easier to write total non sense (as if this wasnt,lol), coz then I wouldn't have to mind about losing the subject all the time.
Back to the point. I was talking about my holidays. starting at juhannus. I started thinking what if I'd just go to Tallinn, Stockholm or Helsinki on a shopping spree? Helsinki is not such a great idea, same country, same prices, same selection mostly. I doubt I'll be able to afford the trip to London or my dream New York. but I'd also like to go to Oulu, the best city in this country. It's been so long since my last time. The funny thing is, I think it is a lot cheaper to go to Stockholm than Oulu.
The reason why I'm so eager to go abroad on my summer holidays is the fact that the weather is usually at its worst in the end of june and beginning of july.. that's when it's usually cold and rainy.
It better be something else this year.
the weather is just fantastic looking today and the surrounding days. Sunshine on a clear sky. Still it's not a time to jump for joy. It's still quite cold outside, 10 C or 50 F for the possible readers in the Fahrenheit system.