Vappu

To be accurate Vappu isnt until tomorrow, but tomorrow is more like the national hang-over day.
Today is the day for celebrations.
This is the first year when this day's been absolutely meaningless to me. I've no plans.
Might get a bottle of wine. Or cider.

http://ekabini.blogspot.com/2007/04/sunnuntai-klikkailtavaa-blogien-parhaat.html is the source for this picture. Typical Vappu things, munkkis, sima and serpenttiini

Good thing today's going to be "hot" and sunny, at least it is now.
The salary came today. I think the money is again all spent already. In my head at least. This sucks. I need a raise. A big one.
The region manager came by yesterday and had a problem with everyone's outfit. Now I have to wear a tent in the lobby. Some day, far too soon, we'll be getting white shirts to wear here. That's just great. Then everyone can see our bras. And it's not like I have a white one.. OR will ever find. Shopping for bras is really hard. Each time I manage to find a suitable one it is either black or purple. So basically a dark color that shines through a white shirt so easily. And then the other problem I have with white is the color. White is soooo wrong for me, makes me look ever fatter, which I really dont need. I look fat enough as it is. Then i'll just feel huge and ugly and miserable and will hate my job and myself more and more each day. That must be her plan.. the managers I mean. Make us all miserable so we wont be asking for a raise. Whereas she drives a brand new white station wagon.. And she can wear her own clothes..

I was supposed to bike to work this morning. Then I remembered that most places close at 6pm. I get off at 4 and I need to buy a lot of things, best just take the bus.
I need:
Shampoo
Conditioner
Toothpaste
HP Chilli
Garlick
Pirkka Kurkkusalaatti
New panties
A t-shirt
Hair dye
Wine
Food
Ben&Jerry's

Well this much I can remember now... Hopefully I'll remember the rest when I'm in the shops.

I had 4 pain killers yesterday. In three hours. It took 5 hours to kill the pain but not nearly as long to affect my brain. I was feeling a bit dizzy or unclear in the head for a while. Not something I want to do ever again, but what to do when you feel like dying once a month..? Perhaps I should see a doctor but that would require a phone call, which is something I hate and then I'd actually have to go there to talk about my issues.. Never liked seeing the doc.. I'm not all that good about talking and especially talking about my personal matters and feelings. So seeing a doctor isnt really fun for me.

so perhaps I'll return here later this afternoon, now I should really get some work done..