disturbing

Yesterday I found a health card from when I was either 14 or 15. It had also my height and weight on it. I was a bit shorter then. And also I was a bit heavier then. So basically I am much thinner now than I was in middle school. That's somewhat disturbing but also very wonderful at the same time.

Tallinn

I got a free trip to Tallinn yesterday. The catch was I had to be the driver. I drove a van for the second time in my life and in 2 different unfamiliar cities. But it was fun.
It didn't start off very good. At around 6:40 we were meant to leave from Pirkkala and the hand break was stuck. It took awhile to get it released and then we were off. It was rainy so I was only driving 100-110km/h. But we got to the harbor without a problem. Next problem appeared when we were checking in. The height of the van was a bit problematic. It was supposed to be 190cm but then the harbor guy measured it to be higher. But he was too drunk or too uninterested to do anything about it so he let us go. I was still a bit worried about driving to the boat because it was my first time behind the wheel doing that. But things went well. Boys drank beer on the boat and I didn't. I saw someone who look very much like Olli Hietajärvi and when I mentioned it to my bf he mentioned the other guys in the same company were Teräsbetoni. When we got out in Tallinn it was the different harbor than first thought so the route to the Norde Centrum was different and by the time I realized that it was too crowded to change lanes and we ended up doing a lap in the other side of the city center but eventually ended up parking on the norde centrum lot. And even though I said no way we're eating at Hesburger we couldn't find another place to eat so we ended up back at the Hesburger at Norde Centrum. Ridiculously cheap compared to Finland. We were about 30 mins ahead of our schedule but headed out for the SuperAlko anyway. Good thing we didm since it took so long to get all our booze. Only we were at the harbor heading back an hour before it was boarding. It was a bit hard to be the only one who couldn't drink anything all trip but I made it. And even though R was unsure where we were going after leaving the boat I knew what I was doing and we got to the right road to Tampere eventually. All and all it was a fun trip and I would do it again. Only I'd hope next time I'd have more money.
by the way Tuukka could so well be a brother of Jesse's if I didn't know any better.

*Yawn*

The darn darkness is killing me. I sleep 10 hours/night and I'm tired all day and nothing is interesting and I'm just bored all the time. I need sunshine. I really NEED it. Maybe it's such a medical condition a doctor would recommend moving to another country ;)
Dream on.. As if anything interesting is ever gonna happen to me. You see? That's what this weather does to me. Makes me all negative and miserable. Not good.

I had to give up a little in the job situation and apply to a very uninteresting job. It probably doesn't even pay enough. I can't live like this anymore. I need money.

solar powered

I think I must be made of tiny invisible solar panels. Last week was hot and sunny and wonderful. I was happy and energetic all week. Today it's dark and rainy and cold and I can barely keep my eyes open..

:D

I have to say that this has been one of the best weeks of my life. It's amazing what a bit of heat and sunshine do to me.
I'm like a completely different person.
Also made my exercise record this week. Never ever have I done this much i(we never go anywhere together). I was ready to take pictures but of course I had left my phone at home..
I'm going out "terracing" with 2 of my friends today. I was trying to get them to go out yesterday but both were willing to do today instead. Suits me fine. This is going to be the last good day for a while so it's best to enjoy it to the fullest.
Also I have to mention that I am a bit drunk already. Drinking sangria. Although not as good as Don Simon, but what can I do?
Best quit while I haven't made a complete fool of myself...

things that make me happy pt 1

A new low on the scale

Summer is here

Finally!
Or it should arrive tomorrow. With 28°C. And it should last at least until the end of the week.
I*m gonna love every minute of it. I promise.
I was thinking of going for a quick swim today. It's too cold for anything more than that.

I am going to try to define myself again..

I've been thinking again. I suppose I am an artistic soul after all. Although I possess absolutely no artistic talent whatsoever..

You know the kind of a.. free spirit who thinks life should be about experiences and new things and good times and good wine. Definitely good wine. (although any wine is good wine when there's nothing else available)
The thought of marriage and kids horrify me. Of course I am happy for my friends for getting married and reproducing if it makes them happy but I can't picture myself in their situation. Life is too much fun to be locked inside four walls if you know what I mean.
I am the kind of person who goes out into the nightlife with her friends even when both of us are absolutely skint. Enough for now.

Set a goal

I was reading my heiaheia stats and realized I'm pretty close to -10kgs. On the 15th of June last year I weighed almost 10kgs more than I do now. But only almost. I decided I should try to get there by the 15th. Although this morning I am not as convinced I'll make it anymore. But we'll see.

"Awesome"

That's like the awesomest word there is, right?

I suppose I should believe I'm awesome too. It's just hard. It's so unbelievable. It should really give me a lot of confidence, only it hasn't, at least much. Maybe some day.

But I don't see it myself. I think I look pretty average. I'm not even especially thin or anything. But hey, what do I know?

you know what?

Kesko moving is pretty much the best thing that's ever happened to me, sort of.