Sometimes I think my sour mood is caused by the lack of sugar in my diet. That I haven't had much candy for weeks. But that's just stupid. It's not like I'd have been sugar-free completely.
Then I wondered, that even though I'm really looking forward to being unemployed in June, perhaps I'm still stressing over it unconsciously. The worst thing that could happen is me having to do similar job still. That thought makes me almost panic. But then I also wonder am I ever going to get a proper job? I mean I'm terrible at writing job applications. Then all the jobs I'm after are also applied by at least 90 other people. 154 was the number on the last job. How am I supposed to be better than all of them? It's not possible. I don't have enough experience or special skills for that. I would need to think of a new profession. Something completely different, something less popular. Or I would have to come up with a brilliant business plan and start my own business. Unfortunately I don't have any ideas. Or skills.
Why do I think all my posts are this depressing? It might be that I only write when I'm feeling most down or because nothing fun or interesting never happens.
This month has been a terrible money spending month. First there were 2 massages, then the cats vet and special food and my dentist. Have another appointment with the dental hygienist next month. Should be lots cheaper. I have very good teeth. Something to be happy about.
I'll add something fun to the end. I have three parties to look forward to. Or "parties". All with my work buddies. One theater night with dinner and more. One farewell party for the whole place before they move and they're even thinking of another sauna evening at Tarja's too at some point. So something fun coming up.
Also one of my hyacinths from christmas is still alive and well. Flowerless but strong looking. Although it's turning a bit purple, kind of waxy, so I'm not sure it's doing all that great. But still it looks fine.
