just a thought

I so rarely ask for anything because the answer is always no. I have learned over the years that asking for something will only make me feel bad, so it's best just to avoid that..

stupid

Sometimes I wish I was an actress so I could at least pretend to be happy. Although thinking it one step further it probably wouldn't help anyway.

:(

Frustrating some days when there's no one to talk to... I think I have to start irc:ing again

Motivation is missing

I decided to really work hard on getting in bikini shape but I seem to be missing the motivation to do so. That is not good. The problem is not so much exercising less, which of course I do, but not that much, it's the lack of self control when it comes to unhealthy snacks :/ I keep telling myself I will get back on track when the snow is gone and temp is higher, that's when I'll try to start running again. And then I feel stupid for writing this down in case someone actually reads this stuff. Well I never said I was a good writer or even an interesting person. Oh but I wish I was, both.

miami

just so you know, my miami dates are set and everything is booked and paid for.