sat

been naughty today. Started with Daim McFlurry. Oh that was so delicious. Then later bought a small bag of toffee and a yesterday's strawberry danish. yum yum. very naughty.
I started wanting Alanis Morissettes album Under Rug Swept. Looked for it at cdon.com, quite cheap. I just don't have any money. Suddenly realized there's a perfectly fine library less than a km away. Checked online if they have that cd and must have been my lucky day. Took off straight away. Looking around at the library also found a Jewel album and three Waylon Jennings. Took one Waylon and headed to the movies. Nothing interesting there. The English book section was almost as disappointing. All the Maeves, were the same ones I have at home, only one Sheldon(the best) and no Marians or Cathys or anyone else. After a careful look I found interesting looking books by Lauren Henderson. When I go for an unknown author I judge the book by its cover. The nicer the cover, the more likely I'm taking it. And it also met my two main criteria, besides the cover-thing, it's chick-lit and the writer is English. I wasn't in the mood for anything scary or exciting. Although that book is about a PI it can't be anything but light reading.
Am very pleased with the Alanis cd. Excellent music. Waylon also not letting me down. Haven't gotten to Jewel yet.
I'm making a dish from the past today. Something delicious and extra unhealthy we used to eat when we were kids. My sister got the recipe from mom. Hope I can make it as good as it was back then. If only I could get Grandma's blueberry pie recipe I'd be happy. Perhaps even the rieska recipe. I understand it's the easiest bread there is, but am afraid it needs a special oven.. It doesn't really matter, wouldn't be making that much anyway. The pie is what I really want. No one else makes blueberry pie as good as my granny. She's getting so demented I'm afraid she doesn't remember me or the recipe anymore.
Would someone come vacuum this place? I really don't feel like doing anything. It's after all my only real day off of the week.

friday

for a moment there I thought of writing a letter. Then I couldn't think of anyone to send it to..
Then I decided it was best if I just wrote another blog entry. I'm bored. Don't get me wrong these are the best work days. When there's nothing to do. I get a headache if I have to envelope too many letters. I have no idea if I can say that. Use envelope as a verb. Is it right?
I forgot to watch the second semi-final of the Eurovision song contest last night. Went to bed before nine and slept lightly till i got a txt at 1:40 am and a call four minutes later. Then as I was driving towards the city center five or so minutes later I remembered it. It's not the end of the world. I can still watch it online. I so hope Finland won't win this year. It's not right to win with a metal song again. Eurovision is not that kind of a contest.
There's a Mark Dennison on the radio. He sounds exactly like Oscar Blaketon in Heartbeat. Not the same guy, I checked.
My hair's dirty and in need of a cut. I "forgot" to shower yesterday. It wouldn't be so dirty if I hadn't put the extra hair mousse on my head.
I went to the gym yesterday. I was supposed to spend lots of time there since I've been so lazy lately. What I did was spend 25 minutes on the massage-chair and then about 20 minutes in the gym. I really didn't feel like being there and doing anything. I don't think there's a point to force myself. They (some fancy scientists) say that the best results you get when you're in the mood. I know it's money wasted. Spending 10-50 e/month, depending if I've had exercise vouchers, when I go max once a week. But what can I do? I'm always so tired. And it's so far away these days. I've been having to wake up far too early for far too long. It's not normal for anyone to be up at 5 or 6 am, especially when you don't have kids. And then If you have to put up with a lot shit at work, there's no way any energy is left at the end of the day. I know some people use sports as a way to relax but not me. I just want to watch telly and read a book and sleep a lot.
Why is Facebook always under site maintenance in the midday? Now that I'm bored I'd like to go there and do stuff. But I can't get in. **** ****

sporty tuesday

this morning at 7:07 sitting by my computer. sun shining nicely outside. got urge to bike to work. fmi said only 2,4 C out. a bit cold. nothing a proper clothing wouldnt solve. got up and went to dig out mittens and something for the ears. and actually did it. took amazingly short time 15-20 mins, would say about a minute faster than the bus. the bus and i on the stop at the same time. the bus on the final stop and i two stops behind. from stop to work on foot approx. mins. think it's safe to say i was faster by bike than i'd have been by bus. didnt even sweat much. downhill almost all the way. will be horrible to go back. uphill all the way. bit worried about the possibility for rain.
good lunch today. cant wait. almond fish and berry quark. great.
started thinking in british. would be great if i could speak the same way.
think my favorite english expression is "early days". dunno what it is that makes it so appealing to me, just somehow fun two words. early days.
nine thirty. already scanned table empty. will have a day full of games.
lost endorphin feeling.

the drunken night

sunday and getting pissed. had some white wine and cider. must work tomorrow.
if only i could be drunk at work. maybe then it would be a bit more tolerable. or not.
gosh i hate that place. it just gets worse and worse every day. i need to find another job i could start after my summer holidays. i still want the holidays and the money. after that i never wanna see the place again. especially the boss.
it seems as if this blog is only all about how much i hate my job. cant help it.
thursday was my last chace to apply for english philology this year. there was no point since i could never get in and i wouldnt survive in an university. too much reading boring stuff.
wish i could write like keyes again. seem to have lost the touch. see if can bring it back.
spent all weekend relaxing. did nothing real. just read and watched telly. and slept a lot. 14 hours on fri-sat night. was that tired. got two six am mornings next week, wonder how on earth going manage those. and if the weather doesnt improve there's no chance for getting less tired.
had chinese yesterday. chicken&pineapple. didnt like it. too sweet. bf left most of his hot garlick sauce's veggies, i ate those. almost had 2 meals. too much. know not to get chicken&pineapple again.
watched the english patient finally. one boring movie. far too long. at least i've seen it now. no need to watch again.
i felt more drunk after the wine. now been drinking cider. not so drunk anymore. need more wine?

hate my job

I hate my job, i hate, hate, hate, hate, hate my job. I hate my job, i hate my job, i hate hate hate hate hate my job, i hate my job i hate my job, i hate, hate, hate, hate, hate my job. Everyone join in! I hate my job, i hate my job, I hate, hate, hate, hate my job.
I hate my boss, i hate my boss, i hate hate hate hate hate my boss.
I need new job, i need new job, i need, need, need, need new job.

at least they're playing my new fav song on the radio(trent fm, nottingham) Estelle - American Boy.

go again.
I hate my job, i hate, hate, hate, hate, hate my job. I hate my job, i hate my job, i hate hate hate hate hate my job, i hate my job i hate my job, i hate, hate, hate, hate, hate my job. Everyone join in! I hate my job, i hate my job, I hate, hate, hate, hate my job.
I hate my boss, i hate my boss, i hate hate hate hate hate my boss.
I need new job, i need new job, i need, need, need, need new job.

getting ready for the big bosses

not happy. long day today. work-related thing later. fortunately with pay. sucks.
mrs big boss and mr even bigger boss coming. work done, lying on table. invoices, not me.
got car. no need to rely on busses to get home.
finished book yesterday. was brilliant, fantastic. ended too soon. long wait for next. started writing blog Lola-way. written blog many times in head. old dreams of moving to dublin (or london) and becoming a writer came back. hate U2. listening trent fm all week. want to hear british talk.
writing dream. had for 11-12 years. no verbal talent. dream gone.
bosses here. must end.

hot hot hot

hot hot. and i love it. and it's not even really hot only 22,5 C but it feels so hot and the sun is shining all the time. I've been out for about 5 hours. Just came in, started feeling a bit woozy. The last hour or so I spend right behind the house on a bench, reading a book. I brought a cider for drinking and I was wearing a hat and lots of sun screen lotion. I still think I managed to burn myself :) that's not good of course but it's not bad, just slightly red. Havent seen my face yet. I spent couple of hours in the morning trying to find summery shoes and shorts or skirt or something less hot. I was wearing my black pants folded and the ancient sandals i've never liked.
but then again when everything looks bad on me, why bother...? i know i look like shit and it'll never change. i cant seem to find the perfect motivator.

so the ice hockey championship games started yesterday. very uninteresting. i really couldnt care less. hockey is a stupid game played by idiots. men who have lost their brain along with their teeth. Fortunately this year is a football year also :) european games. should start in june. cant wait.
we are planning to attend the footie practices in june. our gym thing.

oh my back..

is killing me..
Today is a weird day. Everything is so strangely calm. People dont walk around as much as they normally do. And I dont feel like doing anything at all. Really tired. I have plenty of scanning to do, but those darn piles contain so f* many mistakes.. I really really dont feel like doing them today. It started shining outside. I want to go there.
The lunch sucked also. Fish was too salty. Dessert was too lumpy. Bread was bad too.
At least I didnt have to take the bus to work today. I drove. I just woke up far too early. In my slight drunken state last night I didnt realize I dont have to wake up so early to catch the bus.
I wore my new halterneck under the work-tent, so I wont have to go to the stores wearing this ugly tent after work. I'm thinking of making lasagna.
I really should get a haircut. My hair's been growing for nearly fours years uninterrupted.. It's been cut twice since.. but not too much. Now it's all uneven and full of split ends. But it's so f* pricy. I can't afford it with my salary.. perhaps when I've had my loan paid off. Then I'll have like 200 extra, which is more than enough for a simple haircut.
I'm secretly reading a book while I scan. I have it hidden inside a folder so people might think I'm actually working. It's the fouth fictional novel by Nick Hornby. A Long Way Down. It's quite good actually. But so were the rest of his books so it's no wonder. You know what? I'm sure I won't be getting the new Marian Keyes today. It would be so my luck. Telling everyone it's coming and totally expecting it myself and then it doesn't come....

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i got lontoon rae chocolate, rum-raisin ice cream, 2 ciders and a 6pack of beer for the boy.
The store only had kopparbergs extra dry cider left of the dry ciders.. the rest were all sweet. seems that a majority of people prefers their cider good, like me. dry or extra dry. especially the english type of cider is my favorite.

vappu day, or May Day

so.. I've run out of drinks.. I had a bottle of cheap romanian white but it's all gone now. I need more. Can't waste this wappu. i'm not even drunk yet. Just a bit cheerful. Wearing my Yo-lakki. That's the white cap we get when we graduate from high school (lukio). And we only wear it during wappu after the actual graduation day. Mine is getting a bit yellow on the sides.. It's a shame.
We didnt drink yesterday, when was the actual drinking day. I'm working tomorrow but I still need more to drink. Went to the country side, my bf's family has a summer house there.. It sound more fancy than it is.. Did somethings there and on the way back my f-in-law bought us lunch/dinner, so it was free kebab.
I need to change my pants and go out, find it any stores are open. For more drinks.
It's a good time now that Sheena went to lunch and there's nothing on telly...