this is my 50th post

wohoo.
This is the sixth day in this **** lobby. I'm so sick of it. The scanner is still broken. It has been since last Monday. The computer guy didn't show up. He might come at noon. There's a disaster waiting on the tables. Not really looking forward to it. But luckily I don't have to be here tomorrow.
I'm so tired. Had really weird dreams last night. The last dream was rather interesting. First of all Tammerkoski was huge. A lot bigger than it actually is. There were this huge old factory buildings that were renovated into apartments. We just moved in there. It was expensive but the price includes fancy lunch everyday. I was pregnant. It was a boy. And I was really worried and upset cos naming a boy is really difficult. I don't know any good boy's names. It was a weird dream. Wouldn't mind living in a place like that. Free lunch everyday and a fabulous view.

I was looking myself in the mirror and felt sick. Today i'm going to test the gym at the swimming hall. I just hope my muscles won't be this sore after work anymore. I used my abs wheel again on saturday and could barely move yesterday. I'm going to get tension headache later today. I just know it. Just like everyday last week. Now i've even started feeling dizzy. That's a bit scary.

There is absolutely nothing for lunch today. I suppose I'll have to take a sandwich. Had an apple for brekkie. I'll be terribly hungry by lunch time. But I'm training myself into eating less. I used to be able to work 8 hour-days without eating anything. This place has ruined me. Nothing good can be said about this job. Nothing at all. And still no big (or small) lotto winning. So unfair.

Yesterday there was opera on tv. There was this man who had a regular sized head, tiny body and supershort arms. I didn't laugh. I didn't think it was funny. All I could think of was at least he can sing. I wasn't really feeling sorry for him as much as I was feeling sorry for me. He could sing. I can do nothing. I really do need a self-confidence boost but I don't know where to get it..

I just want to go back to sleep.

There is still no sign of the dishwasher we were supposed to get in July. I've lost all hope. And I can't afford it now anyway. It would just be nice to be told that it is not coming at all. Wouldn't have to worry about it.

I've started thinking about xmas presents. So here are somethings I've had on my mind:
- Playstation 2 (with guitar hero, singstar, buzz, crash team racing...)
- Nero dishes
- water-proof mp3 player
- Leopard (10.5)
well now I can't think of anything more. I'll tell more later when I've thought of more, ok?