My problem

I think my biggest problem is that deep down(or maybe not that deep) I don't really want a normal job. Maybe that's why I find it so hard to decide what I really want to do. And by 'really' I mean something realistic. Because I'd rather be a singer, dancer or a writer. But since I'm not particularly fantastic at any of those things I'm screwed.
Am I repeating myself?

Last weekend I had fun again. I had started feeling really bad about myself again and that Saturday evening was just what I needed. A bit of attention. From three different directions. It was a real ego booster. I've been feeling a bit better since. And I also got to sing karaoke again. And it was brilliant. I love the karaoke at Gloria. The sound around the mic gives me the illusion that I'm good. I'm not. I recorded my song on my phone and although the sound quality is terrible I can hear I can't really sing all that well at all. But at that moment when you're on stage holding a mic and singing a song and it sounds good to you that's just really awesome. More of that please!

Although the night was pretty great as it was, something was left out. I'd really like to dance. It's been too long. Not counting Zumba and hiphop of course, but good old sweating and dancing for hours in a night club to good danceable music. Watching Alex Sparrow Russian party videos on youtube made me miss it even more. Also how fantastic would it have been to have been at that party anyway? Or just to have lived in Düsseldorf this month?!?