in the mood for country

I'm feeling a bit down. Thinking bad thoughts and going through worst case scenarios in my head.
I've decided that I'm no good. I'm not good at anything and I'm not really interested in anything. At least anything I could think of doing for living. It's no wonder I can't decide what I'd like to do.
Suppose I'm stuck in that horrible job for ever.. Or at least until the job no longer exists in 2010.
I really really dont want to do that a day longer but I dont know what I'd really really want to do instead. sucks.
Wouldnt it be great if I could just go somewhere nice to "find myself" like they do on telly? Like spain or new york or london or or or or. But I'm not a millionaire.
Hey that's what I'd like to be - a millionaire. I could do anything I want or do absolutely nothing. I could buy everything I could possibly want and didnt have to stress about anything. A Stress-free life. That's a nice, distant dream.
I'm learning to drink G&T's tonight. Being home alone - again. I could use a lemon. Forgot to buy one.
I love country music for its dark, sad lyrics.