10 days to xmas. I've done pretty much all my shopping, last ones today at lunch. I don't feel at all xmassy. Been feeling a bit low anyways in the past few months or so. Especially now when it's -16 to -24 C outside all the time. It's not the darkness because it's not been dark, there's so much snow everywhere. General displeasure. I have my dance hobbies to make me happy but that's only for an hour / day maybe the good feeling lasts a bit longer but ..
One thing I am extremely happy about me. Physical feature. I've always had a waist. Even on my fattest of days I've always had a waist. That means of course now that I am the smallest I've been in nearly 7 years my belly doesn't look saggy or otherwise ugly. a few more kgs and it's looking quite good actually. If only I could get thin arms too. I've never had thin arms...
I figured the best excuse for a run. All you need is a dog. It doesn't have to be your own dog. My boss' dog loves it when we run a bit. He's old so luckily he doesn't run too much, I can keep up.
I've lost all motivation to work. Even the thought of having a regular job freaks me out a bit, since it's not going to be what I really want. So what do I really want? Still no clue..
I wish I had a talent. Sucks to be average but not have the mind to live average life.
haha. nutcase obviously.
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