Can't wait for this season to end

I'm just so tired all the time. And I mean all the time. Although I get enough sleep almost every night I still feel as if I could sleep a lot more. Too tired to do anything.

Ok I have to admit one thing. Even though I always say I hate snow, but there's one plus side to that. A little bit of snow lights up the place enormously. That I like. Still would rather have palm trees every day and warm to hot weather all year round.

And a little confession to finish.. I have started to dislike xmas. I mean I still love the food and the presents and the basic idea. But the stress! People demand so much of me and there's absolutely nothing I can do to make everyone happy. Someone will automatically be disappointed and I have to deal with the guilt. This year I'm getting a tree and I'm not telling R. He's going to know when he sees it on the balcony. He's not going to ruin my xmas this year. At least I'll have a tree even if nothing else is perfect.. Or the way I like it.. What I'd really like is to go abroad or to a spa or something for the holidays. To avoid all that stuff. That or to have xmas my way.. Oh well I guess I can never win..